Weight-Loss Apocalypse

Her husband won't have sex with her unless she is 110 pounds. This weight requires she literally starve permanently. She's reconciled that her marriage could be over because she will never again diet to lose weight for him ever again. RECORDED SEPT 2017 #thinsupremacy #freedom #weightlossapocalypse #divorce #codependency #recovery #bodyimage #dietbingediet #bed #bingeeatingdisorder #ed #eatingdisorders #ana #bulimia

In this session, we discuss the urge to overeat when life is unfair. Seeking a form of compensation when people feel victimized by life is a common reason dieters emotionally eat. The combination of feeling bad about your body, believing you need to lose weight, agreeing to future food restrictions, and feeling bad about a life stress promotes pleasure seeking behavior with food and overeating. Because there is a future diet that will "fix" the consequential fat gain, over eating for emotional reasons is justified and rationalized. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017 #thinsupremacy #weightlossapocalypse #dietbingedietcycle #bodyimage #emotionaleating #stresseating #dramatriangle #victim #grace #bingeeating #bed #eatingdisorder

This is the beginning of her recovery process. It is peaceful to start...We discuss the freedom it feels to not be focused on weight loss and to have freedom from worrying and stressing out about food. This initial freedom is common when people start the process, because they are so miserable they are willing to temporarily surrender weight loss to get relief. Many people revert back to body image and food stress as they bring back the desire to be thinner. This is the beginning of an up and down process with this client. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017 #thinsupremacy #dietbingedietcycle #bodyimage #weightlossapocalypse #eatingdisorder #ed #bed #ana #recovery #surrender #grace #selflove #bodylove #freedom

We discuss what it feels like to let go of control and to relax around letting the body tell you when and how much to eat. It takes humility to recognize fighting for control has brought about incredible pain and suffering...There's suffering controlling fear and stress about life by eating, but also when controlling insecurity through weight loss. After successfully controlling food and losing weight, it can be incredibly difficult to let go of that success and the pride acquired, to get relief from the suffering of how the mind works when imposing diets. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017

This is our initial consult. She came to me to help her get through a round of the hCG protocol. But every time she's done it, she freaks out after and ends up emotionally eating. We discuss the link between body image and fear of weight gain after a person loses weight, to strain and tension with food. Ultimately, the fear of weight gain projects onto fear of food--triggering survival mechanisms geared toward WANTING AND NEEDING FOOD. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017

Despite her intense desire to feel better, she doesn't recognize her anger and resentment toward her parents is why she's miserable...and why she assumes fixing her body will make everything better. It's as if losing weight will somehow relieve her of criticism from her parents which will relieve her misery. THE MISERY IS HER ANGER AND RESENTMENT. And she justifies bingeing and over eating as a way to gratify those feelings. She eats to get a sense of freedom from the criticism she received from them when she was a child...and continues to feel even though her parents have passed away. We discuss codependency and the drama triangle. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017 #dramatriangle #dietrescuer #bodypersecutor #familyresentment #anger #thinsupremacy #weightlossapocalypse #bodyimage #ed #bingeeatingdisorder #bed #ana #bulimia #recovery

We discuss how negative body image changes the hCG protocol. The emotional goal of losing weight to feel better about yourself for emotional reasons makes the protocol a "diet." IT IS NO LONGER A MEDICAL TREATMENT THAT IS FOR THE BODY. The hCG protocol done as a diet is about emotional benefits...the protocol done as a medical treatment is about the body. We discuss what it feels like to love the body unconditionally, which means you have to emotionally face the fears you'd rather hide from. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017 #thinsupremacy #fightorflight #survivalmode #bodyimage #selfworth #bed #ed #ana #bingeeatingdisorder #hcgprotocol #emotionaleating #recovery

After two years since our last session, she is reaching out asking for help to do another round of the hCG protocol. We discuss Maslow's hierarchy of needs, evolutionary psychology, and survival mechanisms around eating as well as body image. I explain the similarities of thin supremacy to "small feet supremacy" and food binding. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017 #thinsupremacy #weightlossapocalpyse #maslowshierarchyofneeds #foodbinding #bodyimage #ed #ana #bingeeatingdisorder #bed #recovery

This client is struggling with humility. She felt humiliated at a party when a person talked down to her and told her she was stupid. Humility is complicated in cases where you think people are offensive. I discuss the ability to recognize that rude people are more concerned with themselves then they are the people they are rude to. This session is a good observation of the suffering of a person who has been a victim of narcissism, or co-narcissism. She is on the compliance side of narcissistic abuse. She is largely affected by other's opinions of her to an extreme way. There is so much suffering in this state of mind. What she needs is a safe place to develop inner strength and competence. She needs a big hug too. She is experiencing sadness in this session. RECORDED AUGUST 2017

She *thinks* eating carbs triggered her to binge. But when we discuss her feelings of deprivation, insecurity, and victim-hood that occurred prior to eating the carbs, she can see it isn't the carbs that triggered her. It was her feelings of insecurity and burden that were the trigger. We also look into why she continues to eat emotionally when her desire for weight loss is so strong. This is a discussion about cognitive distortions and how being emotional about weight distorts how we relate to food. RECORDED SEPTEMBER 2017